No verses immediately come to bear. No nugget of wisdom to share. Just dullness of mind and spirit. Whose fault is that? To be honest, it is all mine. If God, who is faithful and promised "never to leave nor forsake me" is all that, why would this blogger be so dull?
Sure, it could be onset Alzheimers but more likely it is my lazy mind. Just as the body gets weary and tired, so the mind. Daily I pray and daily I entertain scripture but without much conviction. Prayers of my heart are constant but rarely does this believer slow down enough to "absorb" thoughts of Him. Only occasionally are words, songs or wonderful truths pondered upon. Daily life gains ground and all this believer cares to do is a quick devotion and to bed.
The mind attempts to "relax" while viewing various internet content. No TV in the home but there is access to programs via internet and constant browsing to try and "unwind" at the end of the day, even when "browsing" spiritual things. All this leads to spiritual and mental dullness. It is upsetting and discouraging. What to do? Maybe "browsing" is the problem.
The days when moving thru the darkest trial were the days when this mind seemed the quickest. The strongest. The most teachable from scripture.
Would dark trial be desired to get back to this level of mental acuity? Not desired but maybe warranted. However, I wonder if the current pattern would continue. I do believe "greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. (I Jn 4.4) Yet, how would this believer's heart react to a terrible trial?
So weary, so weary. Prayers are desired.
Humbly submitted, Ps 57.7
P.S. It does occur that the mind of this blogger is happiest when busy.
